First time in Tæmdion

first time there - 2018

I woke up and I open my eyes.

I was flying over a eucalyptus meadow.

My boyfriend was holding me by the hips.

His back to the ground, he was looking at

me with the typical smile of a mother who

lovingly teaches her little ones something.

He was teaching me to fly.

I realized I have wings.

I took a look at them, especially the mechanical system. These are attached to the body along the entire height of the shoulder blades. I wondered how about 15cm of attachment to the body could carry a person's weight with such ease. Discovery 1: I discovered that the wing muscles develop in a helical shape throughout the spine. (Instinctively I saw the typical image of medicine). Having clarified the functioning of the wings and that it was so easy to fly around, I said to myself: the hands and arms are used to create, the wings to vibrate in the air. So what do I need legs for? Discovery 2: the legs are used to remind us that we also need to live on the ground. It was like dividing the parts of the man giving a meaning to each of the parts of him. Very good, she said, with the ingenuous smile of someone discovering the world for the first time. Revealed this trick or this little big truth she realized that she felt herself lifted even higher into the air. I looked up. I saw a friend higher, she was so much higher .. but she had no wings. She was cross legged (like an Indian we would say). She was meditating and had an expression of harmony. Discovery 3: The more you lift your spirit, the lighter you will be. As in a theory of the Presocrats, the lightest element tends upwards. Discovery 4: The higher you climb, the bigger your wings get, until they're no longer needed. An interesting evolution of being. Suddenly the hands that supported my hips urging me to fly further to the side, began to become a constriction. Why do you smile at me but squeeze my hips forbidding me to go higher?

Like wings, vision also develops with evolution.

I noticed that the being that was holding me, had the appearance of my man, but his skin was semi-transparent and there was a semi-dense black entity flowing through him. His hands turned into lead. His gaze was wet like a sad person on the verge of tears. Discovery 5: You only see what you are ready to see. Discovery 6: He had lifted me up hoping he could lift himself up through me. Using me. Abusing me. Until that moment I hadn't realized that he didn't have wings!… He was no longer evolved my dear readers. The wings were severed. At the height of the shoulder blades, two large live, painful, burning wounds. It seemed like having a fresh crust like someone who has just rubbed on the asphalt .. or even better like those burns on the knees someone get falling in the gym rubber floors. Discovery 7: he CAN (!) get rid of that evil that corrupts his soul and blinds him. Discovery 8: to achieve discovery n. 7, he has to tear off the scabs on his back, let the evil out and make his wings reappear. Unfortunately the saddest thing is that he didn't have the strength to live that excruciating pain and he was therefore destined for a life of repeated pain. He had created his own hell and like a vortex, a vampire, he absorbed nearby souls to find a quick passing gratification. Discovery 9: I'm not as bad as he is. Discovery 10: I can't do anything for him if he doesn't want to save himself. Ouch. This discovery hurts. I liked it better when I started to see the wings.. let's go back being a ingenuous child. Discovery n. 10 brings with it the only truth that I didn't want to see, but by now I was too awake to send it back to limbo: he wasn't ready to save himself, I couldn't stop and let a vampire swallow me. Our story was about to end and, like two lines, I still hadn't found my parallel but only an intersection.